I'm feeling this overwhelming electrical field of anxiety build up in my chest. And I think that it's because I decided to do something I am sure of doing but am now second-guessing even though I know it is what I need to do.
Maybe I'm fearing the homesickness that will overcome me. Missing my family, mainly. And. I'm not sure... All I know is I feel this nervousness creeping everywhere, ripping open all my insecurities even though they have nothing to do with this trip. Or maybe indirectly they do, but even that's insinuating a little too far.
I'm honestly kind of shocked at the reaction I'm apparently having to this decision, which is too late to go back on.
I thought about it today. This morning. I thought about what it means to love those around you. I would do well to remember it always.
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