Stuck in my own tracks...

When I feel as angry as I have lately, it's hard to think about how things can possibly change. Things haven't seemed to change for so long that right now, nothing makes me feel better for very long.

The only thing I can imagine doing is laying in bed, useless.

Pathetic as I've become, I'm still trying to move forward. It's such slow going that I may as well be going nowhere though. I am so frustrated with the way things are at the moment that I can't even put it into visual form, I just don't know how. And if I did, it would simply look like a lot of angry scribbling of dark colors. I've been trying to embrace who I am lately, the way that I do things and how I stand out (if that's even applicable any more). And it's been helping, but not nearly as much as I need.

I don't even know how to make it easier. And I doubt it's at all possible right now.

I'm lazy to think or do.